I couldn’t explain – my poor school grades
I did so poorly on my first French vocabulary test, it was embarrassing. And because only the good students had been allowed to start an other foreign language, I really…
Self harm in YOUNG children
My parents were stressing out and bullying me as we got ready to visit our old neighbors new house. They had sent me to get changed so I wouldn’t embarrass…
A childhood home – NOT FIT for human habitation
Growing up the adults around me, family and friends, claimed „I always had the best of everything.“. Learning about the shades and colors of abuse, I know now that isn’t…
A baby’s brain remembers PAIN
I have a substantial dent in my skull. When I asked my mother what happened, she said she thinks it happened at birth. Though it doesn’t show in any of…
Parents don’t WANT to SEE their child in DISTRESS
I was immediately transported back into my childhood, when I saw a video of Chinese girls in an orphanage. Due to the one child policy in the 90s parents where…
LOOSING a loved one – never too young to REMEMBER
After I was born, my mother went back to work and my father stayed home with me. She made more money than him anyway. Once, when I was two years…
Abusive mothers – underreported
„There will be retribution“ My mother threatened me when I picked up the phone to call the police on her. I must have been about five years old. In kindergarten…
oxytocin ADDICTION – possible?
Oxytocin is the hormone that lets mothers and babies bond. The reciprocal release of oxytocin lowers blood pressure, reduces stress, and promotes calm. Kinda like Xanax. And I believe my…
Tickling – a GASLIGHTING tool
Tickled until you can’t take it anymore. When my cousin wouldn’t stop, I went into a different head space. Stopped laughing and just lay there, limb, hoping she would lose…
A PAT on the BACK – WON’T comfort me
Nurturing touches in early life are important for a healthy neuronal development. It protects against social isolation and mental health struggles in adult life. But not all of us get…