My parents MOLDED me with their abuse
„Oh, do you have nose-pain?“ My mother used to mock me. Yes, I did. I had inexplicable inflammation everywhere in my body. I tried not to bring it up but…
Stalking and thyroid hyperactivity
It has been a few years now, that I have asked my parents to respect my boundaries. Preceding this decision I had decided to no longer lie to myself and…
I couldn’t explain – my poor school grades
I did so poorly on my first French vocabulary test, it was embarrassing. And because only the good students had been allowed to start an other foreign language, I really…
Misogynistic Mothers – the wolves in sheep’s clothing
In the past week I was awarded my doctoral degree! Yay me! And it made me think back on how I started on my career as a scientist. I spent…
Having a BABY – a way to make FRIENDS
My cousin that is 9 years older than me frequently asked me to go out dancing with her. She said we tightening family bonds. I knew its because she didn’t…
Parents don’t WANT to SEE their child in DISTRESS
I was immediately transported back into my childhood, when I saw a video of Chinese girls in an orphanage. Due to the one child policy in the 90s parents where…
PARENTS breaking in – a CRIME
It has been a month now since my father broke into my apartment. In the middle of winter and only two month away from the deadline for my thesis. The…
EVOLUTION theory at a loss – WHY mothers harm their children
My mother’s abuse left me functionally infertile. Like all victims of abuse, I often wonder Why? And as scientist, I seriously wonder Why? Because from an evolutionary standpoint this makes…
Abusive mothers – underreported
„There will be retribution“ My mother threatened me when I picked up the phone to call the police on her. I must have been about five years old. In kindergarten…
oxytocin ADDICTION – possible?
Oxytocin is the hormone that lets mothers and babies bond. The reciprocal release of oxytocin lowers blood pressure, reduces stress, and promotes calm. Kinda like Xanax. And I believe my…